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Sunday, 19 February 2012

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 May 18 (ch8)

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 May 18

While crumpling up a package of beef tongue flavored Umaibous, I looked around in the classroom. My classmates weren't minding me anymore in particular. They only seem a little nervous because of the midterm tests that start tomorrow.
"Ya, Kazu-kun!"
"Ouch"
Kokone chopped on my head while greeting me.
"......Morning."
"You know, I was actually only strolling. In Shibuya."
"Hah?"

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 May 5

May 05 (Tuesday) 02:10

I'm dreaming.
I'm dreaming the same dream again.

I toyed with the rabbit plush, missing an ear, in front of the corpses. I plunged my index finger into the torn seam and widened the hole.
I put my fingers into the head and moved them around. The shape of the rabbit's head changed. The touch of cotton feels good. Back and forth, up and down. The eyeball came unstuck. Cotton fell out of its torn face.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 May 4

May 04 (Monday) 07:49

I noticed that I had been restrained by hand- and footcuffs and was lying on a futon on the ground. But I couldn't think properly yet, still dazed.
I was inside anguish I didn't know whether it's reality or dream.
The feeling was like that of sinking into a bottomless swamp.
I struggle and struggle to no avail, sink deeper and deeper, and in the end forget for what sake I struggle. I even become unable to struggle. I just sink deeper into the mud. My body gets filled with mud. I become mud myself. My inside and my outside, both become only mud. Therefore, lose sight of my contours since they're painted out.
I cannot see myself anymore.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 May 3

May 03 (Sunday) 07:12

I woke up. It wasn't the sensation of switching, but the normal sensation of awakening.
I was lying on the ground of Miyazawa's room with cuffs applied to both my hands and feet.
Miyazawa-kun was sitting on the bed. Dark circles were under his eyes. Maybe he hadn't slept properly in the last few days.
When he had noticed that I had awoken, he took out a washcloth and wiped my face. The menthol in the washcloth wiped away my sleepiness.
"I'll instruct you now."
Having finished wiping my face, he said so without greeting me.
"You will restrain Otonashi by handcuffing and footcuffing her and demonstrate your will of betrayal by doing so. You just need to do that. Simple, isn't it?"
"...really?"

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 May 2

May 02 (Saturday) 00:11

I woke up due to a rumbling sound on the desk.
I got up from the bed, took the mobile phone, which was the origin of that sound, in my hands and looked at the LCD screen.
«Maria Otonashi»
Maria Otonashi? Why does she phone me? She calls me even in this state of affairs, so does this mean that «Kazuki Hoshino» hasn't told her what is happening to him? ...no, I guess he couldn't tell his lover this absurd story about the 'box'. But I think she should notice his change, even when he hasn't told her... whatever.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 May 1

May 1 (Friday) 08:14

Kokone ignored my nonchalant "Good morning".
Though she usually drops in arbitrarily into my conversations, today she was strangely distant and talked to other classmates instead. But despite this, she sneaked peeks at me from time to time, with a slightly scary face.
I don't know what her reason was. I have no idea why she suddenly started acting like this. Since I wasn't in the mood to happily chat with my other friends with this state of things, I tried to appear unapproachable by eating a cheese-flavored Umaibou.
"Did you do anything to Kiri?"

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 April 30

April 30 (Thursday) 00:00

The second day begins.

April 30 (Thursday) 12:37

Lunch break.
The reason for my yawn just now might be the mysterious call I received at six o'clock this morning.
«I'll make you a boxed lunch today.»
The call had been terminated before I could respond anything.
What's that mean...?
It's the last day of April and thus Golden Week — meaning that our consecutive holidays are soon to come, too. I go to the corridor and wait for Otonashi-san like I always do. We have lunch together in the school cafeteria every day, but she has never made me a boxed lunch before.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 April 29

April 29 (Wednesday) 00:02

The first day begins.

April 29 (Wednesday) 23:57

The first day ends.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume2 Prologue

I am inside scenery I can only remember in my dreams.
I already know who the person facing me is, but having no 'box', I cannot recall this place deliberately except in my dreams. I don't know when we had this conversation, either.
"Do you remember that I told you that I can see you as an individual even though your kind don't have individualities?"
I don't know. Feels like I have heard about it, but also feels like I haven't.
"Thanks to what happened this time, I am beginning to recognize the reason as to why I can distinguish you. It might be because, while rejecting nothing, you don't accept anything."
This sounds like nothing but a word play to me.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 Epilogue

It is magnificent weather with a deep blue sky.
The first thing I did after waking up was to confirm today's date on my mobile phone. «April 7». Today's «April 7». I also checked in the newspaper and on the TV to confirm that it's really «April 7». Well, of course I know that there's no meaning in such a confirmation. But since the time I was involved in the 'Rejecting Classroom', I can't help but do so. Or else I become very anxious.
The events of the 'Rejecting Classroom' remained in form of knowledge. But I can only recall those memories with a feeling of looking at pictures that were snapped at a place I've never been. The 'box', Maria, '0' - I know what they are. But the corresponding emotions are not there anymore. No anger, no sadness - nothing. So even if I was in love with someone, I would have probably forgotten it by now. Maybe I'm going to gradually forget those memories because they are so faint.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 1st time (2)

"I am Aya Otonashi. Pleased to meet you."
The transfer student says with a faint smile.
Astonished by her looks, the girls start to get noisy while the boys are completely bereft of speech.
Of course I am no exception. I think I've never seen anyone as charming as her before. I couldn't avert my eyes even if I wanted. Our eyes meet. I am instantly captivated by her eyes. The transfer student seems as though she is used to my reaction and smiles softly at me.
It almost makes me dizzy.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 27756th time

I have to end the 'Rejecting Classroom' and regain my everyday life.
What would be the worst that could happen to hinder me from attaining that goal?
To come upon a big obstacle? Say, one where I had to traverse a thin thread from one building to another? One where I had to repeat the same day for a million times?

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 27755th time (5)

"I will absolutely not leave you alone here!"
Thanks to only those words, I could return to the Kasumi Mogi I once used to be for just a moment.
"I am an idiot."
Didn't I decide already? Didn't I decide at the very beginning that I'd destroy the 'box' before I lose sight of my goal and disgrace myself?
But those countless recurrences weakened my determination more and more until it disappeared in the end.
Once, when I killed a certain someone whose name I don't even remember anymore, I should have lost all ways to return.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 10000th time

"Please stop! Please, don't kill me!"
I will not lend him an ear.
I will kill Haruaki Usui.
After all, he suggested it himself, did he not?

I ****ed Haruaki Usui.
And then I vanished. The person that was once Kasumi Mogi vanished. I guess I won't ever see the 'me' again that was crushed in agony, ground to dust and blown away somewhere. Nevertheless, my body will keep resurrecting. My body will keep resurrecting forever, even though it's empty inside.
I feel something entering my empty body.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 9999th time

He has already told me the way to erase him himself.
"How you can make sure that you definitely don't want to meet a certain person anymore?"
Haruaki's suggested various methods to me. So many methods that I'm sick of hearing them. Eventually, we arrived at the conclusion that feelings of guilt are the best way to make oneself avoid a certain person. Again, just like always.
And, just like always, he also tells me how to create those feelings towards someone.
"Why not just kill him?"

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 9000th time

"Why not just kill him?"
Haruaki-kun jokingly tells me this fact when I consult him in my grave situation.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 8000th time (ch25)

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 8000th time

"Why not just kill him?"
Haruaki-kun jokingly suggests his theory to me.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 7000th time (ch24)

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 7000th time

"Why not just kill him?"
Haruaki-kun jokingly tells me this logical solution.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 6000th time (ch23)

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 6000th time

"Why not just kill him?"
Haruaki-kun jokingly tells me the same solution for the 9th time when I consult him.

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 5000th time (ch22)

Utsuro no Hako:Volume1 5000th time

"Why not just kill him?"
Haruaki-kun jokingly suggests such bizarre nonsense when I consult him.

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